Coming Soon

Oh... I actually had my first feel of contraction a few days ago. Once in the morning. These are fake contractions (Braxton Hicks contractions), according to books and my gynea, this is suppose to prepare you for the real labour. Oh god! I really can't imagine me going into labour, trying to concentrate on breathing and push, push, PUSH!!!

Hubby is getting really excited as days passed. Shannon is arriving in about 9 weeks time. And again, according to most mummies, we should be expecting Shannon earlier since it's out first birth. Dr. Kee 'warned' us that Shannon can POP anytime after X'mas. Oh... I hope she doesn't arrive on our Wedding Anniversary day (31 Dec), please. I want her to be a January baby! ;p

I'm really starting to worry if i can really do the 100% natural birth plan. I hope i can! Really don't like the idea of having any other sorts of medications or needles poking into my body! And worst, i really didn't wanna face any after side effects. Just hope...

Hubby keep reassuring me that he'll be by my side to support me. I know he's being sweet. But i do also wish he can experience the pain together with me as well... Whahahaaha~~~

We're both looking forward... ... ... ... :D

Back In Shape

I need to go back to this size, desperately!!!!!!

Counting down... ... ...

9 more weeks to go... ... ...

*Fingers crossed. I hope i don't eat as much as i do now after delivery. Oh please, everyone do help me okie???!!! ;p

Till then, see you guys... :D

Infant Care

At the beginning of my pregnancy, i was very determine to be a stay-at-home-mum (SAHM). I strongly believe in being there for my baby for as long as i can throughout her growing years. Yet lately, i'm comtemplating in sending my girl to infant care after 6 months from birth. And i would love to step foot out there again to pursue my dreams to build my career path.

A part of me really wish to be a SAHM so that my baby will be given the best care and attention. Yet another part of me would love to 'find' myself, do what i would love to do.

I'm not sure if i'll be making a right decision to send her to infant care, or will i regret in future. I'm not sure if being a SAHM will be more satisfying or???

.................................................... (Just some thoughts i'm pondering over now. Nothing serious!)

Soon...

There is actually nothing much to blog about lately... Except that, i'm done with my 3 weeks temporary assignment and have earned some monnies to buy more stuffs for Shannon. :)

I'm almost 30 weeks through my pregnancy now. And all has been well, except for the fact that, Shannon is MORE active than before. I'm experiencing minor heartburns. Of course, the back aches and occasional headaches. Not forgetting the leg cramps! This, is terrible. Remember one night, i woke up screaming in pain. It was soo painful i can't even move my legs! And hubby has to wake up and massage for me while i slowly doze off to dreamland again... *bliss*

And oh yah, i just learnt how to differentiate when is Shannon moving and kicking (playing) and when is she having hiccups! Haa!! Quite fun though. Now, her kicks are getting more intense and painful. Not all the time. But during those times when it's painful, you can see me jump up with a fright or a sudden 'OUCH'! Haa!! Amazing?? Yes, i won't deny. Yet sometimes... It's too.... IRRITATING. Especially, when i wanna sleep or concentrate on doing other things.

Hubby enjoys being amused by all sorts of things Shannon can do now. He likes to wake her up (which in turn, wakes me up too), get her to do silly stuffs and then ignore her and he, goes to bed himself. Leaving both Shannon and i pretty much awake!

What makes everything worthwhile, is the glow and smile on hubby's face and knowing that Shannon will be physically in both our arms in no time...

Left Alone

Very often, we overlooked people or things around us. People that we've, things that we've. We want everything and everyone to do things or follow our ways...

Well, I must admit i'm guilty of these!

Yet, somehow life after marriage has changed me drastically. I put my loved ones before myself, I cherish and treasure time i've with them. I know, there's no such thing as ''we've a whole lifetime together''...

But very often i'm being neglected and left all alone by people who claimed they care and love me most...

Am I really asking for too much???

The Pain Still Lingers

Ahma, can you still hear me???

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阿嬷你今嘛在叨位阮在叫你你甘有听到阮的认真甲阮的成功你甘有看到阮在叫你你知影没

阿嬷你今嘛过的好么甘有人块甲你照顾希望后世人阮搁会冻来乎你疼作你永远的孙仔搁叫你一声阿嬷

想到一步一步的过去定定拢会乎人真难忘时间一分一秒块过去在阮的心内定定拢会想到伊

Exactly what i've repeatedly kept saying to her in my heart. Except for the part, asking if she has seen my success. Which in fact, i've yet succeed in anything in life. I remember my last conversation with her, i still lied to her telling her that, yes i'm working when she asked me about it. But i don't have a job at all, to start off with.

I was scared. I couldn't accept the fact that i've lost her suddenly. I didn't wanna admit and face it. I couldn't even see her for the very last time. Deep down, everyday at her wake, i didn't like it when i see her picture. I just can't accept it.

Yet on the day of her funeral, the pain was so sharp, so strong that till today, it still lingers in me. I didn't know that i actually loved and missed her alot. And that day when we were at the temple, bidding our last goodbye, i saw my grandpa's picture beside hers. I cried even harder. The pain was so overwhelming. I do actually missed both of them ALOT.

Then i realised... I don't think i can accept any of my other loved ones leaving me. Again. Though i know one day people will sure go... But somehow, i wish i don't have to go through this pain again. And as silly as i can be, i wish i would go before any of them...

Oh... Time Flies!

Just when i was soundly asleep exceptionally early, my hubby has to repeatedly call me soooo many times to check what am i up to and if i needed supper! OMG!!! I wanted to kill him then. Haa. Because the problem with me, i won't be able to get back to sleep once i am awaken. I need to be up by 630am later. See, now i'm still so awake! I don't know what to do.

Worst, i'm constipated. We forgot to top-up our 'laxatives' from my gynea last week. Till now, i still have problems poo-ing, even after i've tried all means. I swear i ate lotsa fresh fruits, drink plenty of water, etc etc. But still no signs. Driving me nuts just thinking of ways to make myself poo!

I'm over and done with my 2nd trimester. Time flies, huh?! I'm actually quite excited now. The thought of having just 3 months left before my baby girl POP, is making me quite anxious. I don't know how will it be like after that. I'm definately looking forward to it, though.

Being in my 3rd trimester, means i'm feeling soo soooo soooooo much heavier! I feel really clumsy and BIG. Though, i was reassured that i didn't grow very much in size, BUT i still FEEL BIG! I hope physically i wont grow any bigger. "Shannon, please eat and drink whatever mummy eat and drink so that she'll not grow fat!" Did i mention we're going for a pregnancy photoshoot sometime in November? Yes, we're. Will upload photos of me personally then.

My back is really experiencing the pressure now. I can't sit, stand or even lie down for too long. I can't eat like nobody's business now, because it causes me to feel bloated and uncomfortable. So now, i take alot of meals but in small portions. I drink lotsa water, cause most of the time i feel thristy. And... I didn't had fish throughout my whole 2nd trimester cause it just makes me wanna puke. Come to think of it, i LOVE fish before i was pregnant! Haa!

On the side note, marriage has been bittersweet. Hubby and i had our fair share of happy times, tearful moments, disagreements, 'cold-wars', etc etc. Sometimes, he made me really upset and disappointed that i was sooo despair and really have doubts. Yet every single time, he has his ways to snuggle right up into my arms again. (I've got a big baby, man.) We still have alot to learn from each other, alot to compromise and alot of issues here and there for us to resolve. Not mentioning, we've got another challenge coming her way. But i guess, everything will find its own way. Let's just hope for the best.

If

If i've a choice, i would love to re-live my adulthood again. I would make decisions i wouldn't have made, i wouldn't have made mistakes i've made. I would ensure whatever i do, i wouldn't have regretted. I would do alot of things in different ways.

If only i've a choice...

Now... It seems like, i don't have a choice, except to live on and make the best outta my life.

A New Look

All these while, i've been with my long straight hair.

No change. Except for the occasional hair cut, the bangs, or parting of fringe.

Reason being, i never thought curls will look good in me. Cause i've got thick heavy stubborn hair. Yet recently, i'm crazy over having curls. Of course, being pregnant i know no hairstylist will do my curls for me. So, i borrowed a hair curler from Fannie and try doing it myself.

So, i must say, i like it alot. But on days, i managed to get it done very nicely. Perfect. But on days, i just couldn't get it fix and i gotta leave the house with that ugly curls. Haa!

Hubby love the curls, though. So, i'm so going to get it done once i've POP my little girl. Looking forward... 18 more weeks!

Amazed

Last night, Shannon was really active. She kept moving non-stop and i can't get to sleep.

I tried holding onto hubby's hand, close to my tummy, hoping he can feel his girl move. Suddenly, he exclaimed: "I feel it!". Oh.. I was so surprised then. Cuz Shannon is still very small at this stage, therefore, i thought only i can feel her moving.

What amazed me most is, when i ask her to move harder to let her daddy feel her again, she really did move again. This time, her kick was firm.

I'm amazed!

This is such a bliss. :)

Mondays Are Never Blue

What to do on a Monday afternoon???

Find a place to relax, have a good lloooonnnngggg lunch, enjoy a good cuppa tea and.... Read your favourite novel!

Well, not only on Mondays, i spent most of my available weekdays enjoying my afternoon this way. =D

What's best? You know your best girlfriend (Babe, i think we can celebrate our one decade anniversary?!) enjoys doing the same thing too! Awww... Sometimes, you just don't have a speak to make yourself known.

Mondays are never blue... ;p

Shannon or Daphne?

Alrightie. I know i've been missing from updates. Lotsa it, in fact. But i'm so lazy... (Blogging needs 'mood', you know!)

Anyway, i'm already 18 weeks pregnant. And my bump is physically visible now! You'd be surprised, there're lotsa people out there who are very inconsiderate and ignorant! Young boys think their lives are more important, youth think that they needed rest time more than you do (and oh, think that their shoes are made of gold!), adults who are rude and inconsiderate, the list goes on. It's the old folks who give up their seats to you, help you with the door, help you with your food, etc etc. OMG!!! What has the world turn into???

Among all, i'm even more ashamed to say that, it's the Chinese who are the most selfish ones. Over these few weeks, it's always the other races who are giving up their seats to me, helping me with the door, etc etc. We've Chinese here in SG, young ones, knowing that you've been waiting for a cab along the road for so long, standing for so long and finally saw one available cab approaching you, he can just stand infront of you and hopped into it. He doesn't feel ashamed neither was he apologetic. AHHH!!! I tell you, i've got so many incidents to share about all these inconsiderate people. Whahaha~~

Okie, back to my pregnancy updates. not sure if i've mentioned about my complication, Placenta Seperation, in my blog before, but i'm sure you (my friends) should have heard from me personally. Good news, i'm recovering from it. No more bleeding. But still on medication and rest. Other than this, i've been feeling the 'stretching' sensation and slight pain on my abdomen, tummy area and back! Oh dear, i can't imagine when the load gets heavier. Hopefully, it won't be as bad as i thought. (Promise, pictures up soon!)

Okie, and another news is... Our baby is... A.... GIRL!!! I'm still considering if i should decide on the name Shannon or Daphne. People, pls comment! By the way, if you need to know, her surname will be Koh.

So when it's a girl, means more money spending, more shopping, more protective, more vain, more of everything! Whahaha~~~ I can't resist the temptation of all the sweet clothes and stuffs. But i know baby outgrown them very fast and i'm sure she will have lotsa passed downs from all the sisters.. So.. Control, control, control!

I seriously can't wait for her to arrive! Impatiently...

How Can I Not Worry?

Hmmm... What makes an expecting woman worried most???

When she see red!! Yes, yes. I'm having some kinda complications, called the Placenta Seperation. Accordingly to my gynea, mine is just minor as my placenta is not seperated from my uterus wall very badly. However, if it continue to 'split', then it'll be a very bad sign as my baby won't be able to get sufficent nutrients, water, food from me. Till date, everything is still under control and my baby is growing well. Still, how can i not worry???

On a side note, my tummy is showing now. I'm still eating alot. But i guess it's fine, as i eat with small portions every meals. I'm still having breakouts and losing alot of hair each day! I can't fit into my skirts, shorts and pants now. Sobz!!!

Need to get a fews new stretchable pants, shorts and skirts, and maybe some babydoll dresses. You know, maternity wears are really expensive!!! ;p

And oh yah, my sis had given birth to a lovely boy, Tino. Haven't have a chance to hold him in my arms yet. But will go visit them again soon. :)

I'm so random today. Very tired now. Bye... ...

Nothing More I Could Asked For

Have you ever sit in front of the window, looking out at a open field, enjoying the raining breeze with a cuppa of hot tea, spending some quiet time to yourself and realised that you're actually very contented, loved and fortunate???

Oh well, i do.

I'm a stay-home-wife. My hubby works to supports the household and family. I never need to worry about not being able to meet the datelines, or worry if i'm making enough, all i need to do is open my mouth and ask. Yes, as useless as i can be. My hubby has never complained that i don't clean the whole house, i don't cook, i don't share his load and burden.

Seems like i've got a good life and everything i want? Nope. Price to pay? You don't get to see your hubby everyday, cause when he is home, you're soundly asleep, when you're awake, he's either still sleeping or is already out at work. Most of the time, you face the 42" TV at home and make friends with the nicely painted walls.

How sad that can be? Nope. Hubby wants me to go out with friends, he let's me do and go anywhere i want to, so long as i'll be home safely every end of day.

Shouldn't i be happy with life like that? Sadly, nope. Yes i'm contented, i'm loved and i'm really fortunate. But i guess i'm not as happy as who i was before.

The only time when i'm really happy, is when hubby is back home by my side, hugging me to sleep, kissing me goodnight/morning, making sure i'm feeling warm under the blanket, calls me any minute he can to say he miss me or to check on me, and spending time with me and my family over the weekends.

There's nothing more i could asked for, seriously.

Pregnancy: Week 12

Woohoo!!! I'm half way through out week 12 and i can't wait to bid our first trimester goodbye!

Yes, the shorts and skirts and getting tighter. Most of my dresses doesn't fit nicely now. And i'm left with a few choices of clothes. So actually i feel very uniformed these days... I need people to share their trendy maternity clothes with me! Any givers??? Hee~~~

And yes, the outbreaks aren't getting any better. Worst in fact! And on some days, i'm just to frecked out to leave the house. OMG~~~

I feel very fat and heavy! That's why i can't imagine i've still got 2 more trimester to survive through. I'm going be like a big giant! And oh.. My hubby won't wanna see by then... Sobz! Whahaha!!!

Anyway, we went for our OSCAR test last Friday. Results not known then. But we'll be visiting the Gynea next week, so we'll be able to get the results by then. Hopefully, i don't receive any calls from Dr. Kee. No news is good news!

I was really amazed by the fact that my baby has developed his legs and hands, eyes and nose. I saw him waving and stroking his own head from the ultrasound. Too bad, i can't video that down and show it to you guys! But... I can show you guys a picture of him!!! ;p

I'm so looking forward to start our second trimester. Oh, com'on baby!!!