What Am I To Do

When you know you sent out an nasty email to your whole department, yet have no choice but to do so. And after you did that, you were supported by your GGM. What will you do?!

I've been contemplating on sending the above email the whole morning. But did so in the end cause it's part of my responsibility to ensure that we fulfill our cost saving measures this quarter. I know people will start talking. I know people will start to feel uncomfy with this email. But i don't have a choice. It's either i get the shit, or them. And since human beings are selfish by nature, i choose to do what i ought to do even when i know i'll not pleased everyone.

Will you choose to be in the good books of your bosses or your colleagues?

Bosses decide if you keep your arse firmed on the comfortable chair you sit on everyday. Colleagues help make your job easier by team work. It's difficult to set a balance between both sides. And the last thing i will want myself to be stucked with, is office politics. I know it's hard to avoid, but i wanna try my best to minimize.

Hmmm... ??? ??? ???

Sweetest Thing

GGM: "That is the sweetest thing that i've heard for a long time."
And so, my simple comment will actually brighten up someone else's day.

Be Contented

The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.

Well, many times we come to realize that we took what we have and who we have for granted. And i'm guilty for that.

When i was still in school, i took my parents for granted. I expect them to provide me the best and gave me whatever i asked for. They did a great job being parents. Dad and Mum worked very hard to give me proper education, bought me books to make sure that i don't lose out in what i shouldn't, gave me tuition to further assist me in my studies, and now forgetting all the family outings that made my childhood such a wonderful one. Yet again, many times i disappointed them. By being defiant, stubborn and disrespectful. And when i started working, i must say i'm still guilty of not being filial. But, i've learned to appreciate them more and not take them for granted. I told myself, that i'll work harder than they had to provide them with a comfortable life. It's not gonna be easy, but i know this is what i should and must do.

Now, i'm seriously dating The Boyfriend and we're planning to settle down soon. I expect him to be there for me everytime i need him to. I want him to be the only one to be able to ease my emotions. When i needed comfort, i expect him to be there. And so, for these, i'm really guilty sometimes for taking him for granted. The Boyfriend always has this in mind: "No matter what you do, be it work or life, i just want you to be happy. I want a happy wife." He tried and is still trying to give me the best he could. And i know he's working very hard for our future. Everytime, if it's within his means, he'll give in to me. He doesn't complain. He doesn't think that it's not worth doing it. And i told myself too, for him, i'll be happy and go home being a happy girlfriend and in future a happy wife.

Be contented. Be appreciative.

Anxiousness of Foot Steps

There is one music i particularly listen to every morning... That is the anxiousness of foot steps of people. Every morning, i wake up the same time, do the same routine, walk the same route to the bus-stop to take a bus to the mrt station, then walk the same route to buy breakfast and head to the office. The only difference every working day, is the attire i wear.

Sometimes, i will wonder, am i gonna do this for the rest of my life? That'll be very depressing, seriously.

Anyway, just some random whining. I do have lotsa thoughts in mind, yet not very sure what is restricting me from pouring it out. Worst, even if i wanted to, i don't know where to start from.

Awww... What's wrong with me lately? I've keeping myself up way too long... ... ...

Tranquility

The Boyfriend is down with a high fever at 39.3degrees. If it's given me, i would have been lying flat on the white clean sheet in the hospital. Hope he gets well soon as he needs to go KL for work tomorrow.

On a side note, i've been really busy. Seriously, if you were to ask me exactly over what, i really don't know. But i just don't have the time to even sleep. I mean, yes, i sleep every night. But it's always pass midnight. The next moment i open my eyes, it's 6am, and it's time to prepare for work again.

Anyway, for those of you who are concern bout my new job, i'm doing fine and i'm happy with it.

You know, everything and everyone here in town are so fast pace. The streets are always busy. Everyone you passby are always busy yakking away on the phone or busy replying mails via their PDA phone. Vehicles always hurrying off to somewhere. Loved one might tend to neglect each other due to the little time they get to spend with each other. Well, of course, all these depends very much on individual and how you manage your priorities. But most of the time, we can't deny that the urge for us to earn a living is too overwhelming.

How nice can it be, if we could reward ourselves every now and then with the peace our mother earth can bring us. The tranquility. Sometimes, i wish i could stay far far far far away from the city.