Counting Down To CNY

CNY begins on Monday. Since last weekend, we've been busy buying new year goodies, doing the spring cleaning, stocking up food to cook, etc etc. This year's special to me, cause there are 2 families Hubby and i need to visit. Reunion dinner with 2 families as well. Today, we had our reunion dinner with my in-laws and tomorrow we'll be having reunion dinner with my parents. After which, we'll all go to River Angpow and to the temple. I'm so looking forward to it.

I specially love CNY. Not because i get to receive red packets but i love the fact that the family get together, do nothing but just spend time together. And this year, Hubby and i experienced the 'feel' of preparing red packets to be given out. Gosh!!!

I'm so excited!!

P/S: I've got lotsa photos to upload for all the outings and events that we've attended or organized, but i've so little time to 'glue' myself infront of the lappy to do so. And i'm very sure after CNY, i'll have even more photos to share. Phew~~~!!!

Have a great CNY everyone!!!

Tranquility

The Boyfriend is down with a high fever at 39.3degrees. If it's given me, i would have been lying flat on the white clean sheet in the hospital. Hope he gets well soon as he needs to go KL for work tomorrow.

On a side note, i've been really busy. Seriously, if you were to ask me exactly over what, i really don't know. But i just don't have the time to even sleep. I mean, yes, i sleep every night. But it's always pass midnight. The next moment i open my eyes, it's 6am, and it's time to prepare for work again.

Anyway, for those of you who are concern bout my new job, i'm doing fine and i'm happy with it.

You know, everything and everyone here in town are so fast pace. The streets are always busy. Everyone you passby are always busy yakking away on the phone or busy replying mails via their PDA phone. Vehicles always hurrying off to somewhere. Loved one might tend to neglect each other due to the little time they get to spend with each other. Well, of course, all these depends very much on individual and how you manage your priorities. But most of the time, we can't deny that the urge for us to earn a living is too overwhelming.

How nice can it be, if we could reward ourselves every now and then with the peace our mother earth can bring us. The tranquility. Sometimes, i wish i could stay far far far far away from the city.

Tightness in My Chest

I'll be setting off for a weekend get-away at Harris Batam Resort tomorrow afternoon, with The Boyfriend. Oh, i'm so looking forward. (Shall update once i'm back on Monday.)

This morning i was feeling rather unwell. The tightness in my chest is really killing me sometimes. I tried so hard to concentrate on my breathing so as to ease the pain. You know, i've got this same kinda shit a few years back. And that was when i was still teaching in school and studying part-time at night. Back then, it was worst. Cause i've got very bad migranes. My doctor's advices are to relax, breathe slowly, and slow down my foot steps. He thinks i'm too tensed. Okie, fine. So i took up Yoga. I started to let things come its way, and slow down my pace. Things got pretty much better i must say. So much so that i don't feel that tightness in my chest anymore.

Yet lately, this sucky feeling came back again. I'm not teaching, neither am i studying part-time now. At first, The Boyfriend and i thought maybe i'm too stress up about our wedding preparation and such. But nope! I realised last night that it's not the reason. The Boyfriend was pretty worried at first, as he thought i got so stressed up about marrying him that i almost break down.

And... The fact is... I don't know what am i really stress over too!

Have you guys have got this feeling when sometimes, you just wanna be left all alone? You don't wanna talk, you don't give a damn bout what's happening around you, you don't care how people look at you when you're walking along the streets or window-shopping aimlessly in a big mall alone. Even the most urgent matter don't seems urgent to you! Oh well, i felt this way lately. Yet when The Boyfriend asked, i didn't know how to explain to him.

This morning i felt that tightness in my chest again. I felt so restless. So sick. So terrible horrible. Till i got this,

The Boyfriend: "Baby, please consult a doctor, we have a holiday tomorrow my dear. Promise me to rest well today and enjoy the weekend with me. Please darling, please!

And my replied was such a pain-in-the-arse, "How to? I think i need to over time tonight."

The Boyfriend: "But you're not feeling well, you know. And i got ops tonight, won't be able to pick you."
Me: "It's fine. I'll be better off alone."
The Boyfriend: "No dear. :( My heart pain."

Argh, I'm such a bitch sometimes.